Growing older doesn't guarantee your heart seeing logic, does it?
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And thus, today, I am still in love with you.
- vearlentine
"You say you love rain, but you use an umbrella to walk under it. You say you love the sun, but you seek shelter when it is shining. You say you love the wind, but when it comes you close your windows. So that's why I'm afraid when you also say that you love me..."
--- Bob Marley
Ready to make a change. Happy New Year ♥ - vearlentine
one rainy night in December-
Maybe I should have chosen to do it.
Then you would have had a reason to hate me.
And I would have had a reason to leave.
But now I'm stuck with these feelings for you that I refused to give up just because the mere hope that you have the same feelings for me too.
Maybe I should have chosen to do it.
Then you would have had a reason to hate me.
And I would have had a reason to leave.
But now I'm stuck with these feelings for you that I refused to give up just because the mere hope that you have the same feelings for me too.
- vearlentine xx
I wish I could say that I like you.
I wish we could start a relationship together.
Even when I'm not sure if you're just playing with me, or if you were dead serious on liking me.
Even when you talked to so many other girls in the same way you talked to me, with super flirty pick-up lines and care that exceeds the boundaries of being "just friends".
But I know we wouldn't be able be together in the end anyway.
Because of the differences between us.
Because how my parents wanted my partner to be; to be the same, zero differences.
Those are the whys in me not saying the words 'I like you'
or precisely, the reasons why I couldn't bring myself to have any feelings for you.
Because with me,
Us is always followed by impossibility.
But at times...
I do like you.
The feeling came in like a flood that swept me completely off the shore and into the raging waves of the sea.
Wanting to have you, wanting to hug you, wanting to hold your hand or even just....
Wanting to have the tiniest bit of conversation with you.
But I guess I have already asked for too much.
The time we spent together should be enough to fulfill parts of my wish.
It has to be.
So now, I'm letting you go.
I'm staying as a good friend,
ready to listen to whatever problems you're having, will always be here to help you in difficult times,
but nothing more.
I'm letting you go.
Because I know someone else is waiting for you, someone who can bring the word possible into your life.
Someone who can finally admits that they do like you; returning your feelings.
And I'm happy, ecstatic even, to see your smile as I have never seen it before.
That's when I realize...
I could wish to like you
I could wish to be together
I could wish for the stars to make us collide and to glue us together; leaving no space for separation
But above all that
(All I want is to)
I wish you happiness.
---- even if I'm not a part of that.
The story of us by valentine kein.
I wish we could start a relationship together.
Even when I'm not sure if you're just playing with me, or if you were dead serious on liking me.
Even when you talked to so many other girls in the same way you talked to me, with super flirty pick-up lines and care that exceeds the boundaries of being "just friends".
But I know we wouldn't be able be together in the end anyway.
Because of the differences between us.
Because how my parents wanted my partner to be; to be the same, zero differences.
Those are the whys in me not saying the words 'I like you'
or precisely, the reasons why I couldn't bring myself to have any feelings for you.
Because with me,
Us is always followed by impossibility.
But at times...
I do like you.
The feeling came in like a flood that swept me completely off the shore and into the raging waves of the sea.
Wanting to have you, wanting to hug you, wanting to hold your hand or even just....
Wanting to have the tiniest bit of conversation with you.
But I guess I have already asked for too much.
The time we spent together should be enough to fulfill parts of my wish.
It has to be.
So now, I'm letting you go.
I'm staying as a good friend,
ready to listen to whatever problems you're having, will always be here to help you in difficult times,
but nothing more.
I'm letting you go.
Because I know someone else is waiting for you, someone who can bring the word possible into your life.
Someone who can finally admits that they do like you; returning your feelings.
And I'm happy, ecstatic even, to see your smile as I have never seen it before.
That's when I realize...
I could wish to like you
I could wish to be together
I could wish for the stars to make us collide and to glue us together; leaving no space for separation
But above all that
(All I want is to)
I wish you happiness.
---- even if I'm not a part of that.
The story of us by valentine kein.
Love you all,
Valentine K.
It's time for #tbt or #throwbackthursday ! I heard this song for the first time probably when I was in grade 6. Yep, the early days when I first discovered fanfictions. Reason is, along with me reading fanfiction, I started to discover other things such as mangas and fmvs (fan made videos) on youtube!
It isn't rare for me to find a really good song being used in one of the fmvs that I've watched. As you can guess, one of them is Everytime We Touch by Cascada! I don't really have a background story as to why I'm feeling attached to this song. I think I'm just hooked up by the cheerful melody and playful yet meaningful lyrics.
Nevertheless, if there had to be a background story, maybe the fact that the lyrics suited the manga that the fmv was showing made my heart beat a tad bit faster than it should be. Wondering what manga it was? It's called "Junjou Romantica". Some of you might know of this manga and some of you might not. You can look it up! A little bit of a WARNING though, it's YAOI. Still don't know what that means? Search that up on google first before you proceed any further. I'm giving you an honest advice right here.
Then, it's time to listen to the song! As usual, the lyrics are under and the link for it is provided at the end! Enjoy!
P.S: Personally, I don't like the music video. So if you're thinking the same thing as me, just press play and you can listen to the song while browsing the internet on another tab! :)
It isn't rare for me to find a really good song being used in one of the fmvs that I've watched. As you can guess, one of them is Everytime We Touch by Cascada! I don't really have a background story as to why I'm feeling attached to this song. I think I'm just hooked up by the cheerful melody and playful yet meaningful lyrics.
Nevertheless, if there had to be a background story, maybe the fact that the lyrics suited the manga that the fmv was showing made my heart beat a tad bit faster than it should be. Wondering what manga it was? It's called "Junjou Romantica". Some of you might know of this manga and some of you might not. You can look it up! A little bit of a WARNING though, it's YAOI. Still don't know what that means? Search that up on google first before you proceed any further. I'm giving you an honest advice right here.
Then, it's time to listen to the song! As usual, the lyrics are under and the link for it is provided at the end! Enjoy!
P.S: Personally, I don't like the music video. So if you're thinking the same thing as me, just press play and you can listen to the song while browsing the internet on another tab! :)
I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me
I still feel your touch in my dreams
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive
'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last
Need you by my side
'Cause every time we touch, I feel the static
And every time we kiss I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so
I can't let you go
Want you in my life
Your arms are my castle
Your heart is my sky
They wipe away tears that I cry
The good and the bad times
We've been through them all
You make me rise when I fall
'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last
Need you by my side
'Cause every time we touch, I feel the static
And every time we kiss I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so
I can't let you go
Want you in my life
'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last
Need you by my side
Oh God, I'm totally giving my interest (read: yaoi) away in this one. Lots of people are gonna be so grossed out by this.. But oh well, what have I got to lose? It's what I've been into since grade 6 and it never failed to cheer me up! So, if you guys have an interest or hobbies that might be viewed as unconventional by the public, don't worry about it! It's your thing and as long as you don't put other people at a disadvantage by having it, all is good! Live life to the fullest and do what makes you happy. :)
Lots of love,
Vearlentine xx
Secondly, up to when I was in grade 5, my uncle had supplied me with Bed-time stories books from America. It was awesome! But then, that obviously also cost my uncle a fortune. I was thinking of how else I could get my hands on novels that literally cost nothing. That was until my dad introduced me to the INTERNET. Guess what? I stumbled upon the almighty FANFICTION WORLD. And I remembered thinking, this thing is free, awesomely written and I can even talk with the author directly! (Albeit it was through a computer). I couldn't have gotten a better deal! So, I begun my adventure through the fanfiction world; I started to gather a WHOLE LOT of knowledge about the terms within a fandom for example. Being in the fanfiction world is like speaking in another language. I'm not even kidding. At that time it felt amazing, knowing this whole new world where I could just read and read and read and I was just in grade 6!
The catch though, I also gathered knowledge about things that shouldn't have been learnt by a 6th grader. Yep. Those 18+ warnings, I ignored them all. Oh God, how I wish I didn't. (Who am I kidding? :p)
I will just list my TOP 3 fanfiction websites that could give you an extra amazing experience in the fanfiction world! They are all easy to access; you could just go on the website and read away! So don't hesitate to click on those links!
#1 : http://archiveofourown.org/
I felt like I've been missing out a lot from the fanfiction world when I've just discovered this website 2-3 weeks ago. DAMN! Every story that I have read was of HIGH QUALITY and the authors are all talented af. One thing about me, I am very picky about the writing style of the authors, so sometimes I have a hard time finding a story that I would want to read from the very beginning to the end. But archiveofourown got it all! Not one story I've ever read I hated. Even when it's angst with tragic endings. You know the story is that good when you are willing to commit your time to that kind of story. Also, I am an extremely faithful Grammar Nazi of other people's writings. (I can't really be bothered to check my own writing, apologies.) If there are too many grammar mistakes, I'll definitely stop reading even though it has a really amazing plot. And I have experienced none of that in this website! Most definitely HQ!
For some extra information, from what I've read, some authors are actually INVITED to write on the website. If this is not some fancy, exclusive fanfiction world's privilege, I don't know what is.
#2 : http://www.asianfanfics.com/
Asianfanfic got the second spot because it contains mostly HQ writers. Not everyone got the style that I like and not everyone get their grammar right but some of them are still amazing! On the plus side also, the website has got a very easy-to-understand format and you can navigate around the website freely without having to sign up! Accessibility gives all of the points for this website :)
And the catch for me is most of my favorite authors are very active in this website, they're all friendly and I really like their writing style. They reply to my comments too! Hmm... But fandom wars sometimes do happen in the comment section of a story. Hey, we know better than to join those, right? I know you, readers, are very sensible about these things. Or I hope so.
#3 : https://www.fanfiction.net/
Last but not least! This website is the first ever fanfiction website that I encountered. The thing is, this website doesn't only have their fanfics in English but also some other languages. For example, I found an Indonesian fanfic that was written so beautifully, I still have it pinned on my bookmarks bar! It is also very easy to navigate around the website :) But it is rare for me to find the writing style that I like here so I would put this as my third choice!
Yep. Those are my TOP 3 fanfiction websites! Not to forget though, this is in my opinion so if you have a different TOP 3, that's fine! I would love to know if there's any websites that I haven't discovered yet actually. If you have any recommendations, you can share it! I'd be so thankful to find a new heaven for my craving for reading!
Annnddd, you might also know some of these websites which are not necessarily fanfiction-based website but still got some fanfictions posted in them:
http://www.livejournal.com/
https://www.tumblr.com/
You just gotta find the right tag to find the fanfictions you wanted!
Hope you have a good time in the fanfiction world just like me! (Cheap ways to make me happy, really)
P.S. I should give you an example of the writing style that I like since I kept mentioning it... but I need to ask permission from the authors to promote/link their stories; and authors don't necessarily reply to messages quickly. So, I hope I can do that in the near-future! And just a short update for this week since I'm down with the flu and sore throat. I would say that sore throat is my number one nemesis. >:( Stay healthy, everyone!
Love,
Vearlentine
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